Warning: I’m going to the depths on this one. It’s time to put on the scuba gear, dive deep into the sea, and find the buried treasure. I only swam below the surface in the previous blog. The real action behind the story is about to be revealed.
Overview In my previous blog, The Last One Picked, I shared how the possibility of ushering in my birthday alone triggered a traumatic, emotional, adolescent memory. This remembrance elicited the very same insecure, unwanted feelings I had while being picked last for the dodgeball team. I am prepared for these frailty visitations on my journey of self-love and happiness, for I am highly cognizant of our human weakness and imperfection. A support system is in place. For this particular incident, Mastin Kip and his daily email from thedailylove.com came galloping in on their white horse to my rescue. Two minutes into reading his rad quotes, I was lovingly reminded of who I am, and the awesome gift I am to the world. Sounds great, fits quite snuggly in it’s little package.
What is the lesson here? What truth can be gleaned thus far? The fact that our pubescent traumas can haunt us? Yes. The fact that Spirit comes in and supports us when we need it? Yes. The fact that we don’t have to live in our childhood pain? Yes.
There is something much bigger behind this story, with a much bigger message. It is what I refer to as “the magic” of life. I often refer to my healings as if a magic wand has been waved, the truth came in, and I saw the light, enabling more peace, joy, and self-love to coexist. Behind this story, is the workings of the Divine. Spiritual/Universal Laws come into play, and if we understand those, we can see the many opportunities handed to us by Spirit to heal.
The truth: My soul wants to expand and grow, but it cannot when shackled by wounds from my past. I believed the lie that I was not good enough. I was not beautiful. I determined my value by whether I was picked last for the dodgeball team or not. Being last and ALONE = no self-worth. My soul desperately wants me to understand my worth. Lonely experiences will continue to haunt me until I finally understand I am beautiful and valuable even as the last one picked on the dodgeball team. Even when I am alone. Being alone on my birthday was a gift and it works with the Spiritual Laws of the Universe. The gift from the Divine of being alone on my birthday, was another opportunity for me to grasp my value. When I finally “get it”, when I can finally be alone and feel valuable, the Universe will not have to recreate the lesson for me! Wow! This is great news!
I went to Sedona, ALONE. I celebrated my birthday, ALONE. I did not feel LONELY. I felt valuable! I felt worthy! I felt happy! The sad little girl in the school yard will visit me no more! I’ve healed that little girl, healing this big girl. The alone scenario does not need to be repeated. Well done Kimmi, you listened to the Divine, who loves you very much and desires your fulfillment and joy.
Here’s the real kicker #1: After spending 4 days alone in a cottage on the creek, I realized, I enjoy my time alone. I enjoy my time with people. Both bless me. Being alone does not scare me anymore, I welcome it. The real kicker #2: I am never alone…I have an entire Divine team around me that has picked me to be on their team:)
Yippee! Doing the Happy Dance!
Release to Unleash!
Is there an experience the Divine has allowed to be repeated in order for you to “get it” and be healed?