My carefree spirit was alive and well, even during the time I was discovering my greatness. It tended to be more irresponsible and overly zealous then. I’ve always had an extremely irrational sense of optimism to boot.
From the brief amount of yoga I had ventured into, I was convinced this would surely cure me. I would soon be disposing of those little white pills that start with an X.
As I sat down on my pretty green mat, arranged my towel and water, I internally beamed at the loving yogi’s all around me. Its a gathering of people that seek to live life better, appreciating the most simplistic ways. I relished the energy.
The serene teacher placed herself center stage and began to OHMMMMM in the most beautiful tone. Soon the hum of 30 students resonated the walls in the most amazing cacophonous sound I had ever heard.
I joined in, pleased that my utterance was heard only by me, yet united with the others. Uh oh, I needed another breath, but they kept on going, and going, and going. Three gasps for air later, they began another OHMMMMMM, just as long as the prior one. I was suffocating, and this was just the warm up!
We were being taught the beauty and benefits of different breathing patterns. With each inhale, we took in life, with each exhale, all the cares of the day were released. My only care at the time was whether my lungs could negotiate such balance and control with my mind.
I had to giggle at myself. Such lofty goals I had. What is that old saying about what good intentions get you?
I may not have been able to breathe properly that night, but that yoga studio and its silent seekers shed some light on my incongruent fallacies.
Eventuallly, I was able to OHMMMM a little longer and breathe a little fancier. In moments of crisis, I remember that class, remember my breath, and am able to manipulate it accordingly.
One of yoga’s main teachings is to do what you can, and that is okay. It was my practice, and mine alone, not to be measured against anyone else’s. Just the fact that I arrived ready and willing was a giant step toward my desired life.
This attitude is what life asks of you. Life understands where you have been, and allows room for challenge and room for growth, at your pace.
Just keep going and keep trying.
Release and Unleash!
Have you ever tried something new with enthusiasm but your results were lackluster?
How did you use the experience for advancement rather than defeat?